16 March 2008

Future Me

Now I remember why I insist on never changing my email.

FutureMe is a webservice that allows you to send messages to yourself in the future! Actually, you type it up, give the email address and specify a time you want it sent. I think it has a minimum of 3 months.

I had written this one exactly a year ago to be read on my 16th birthday. Due to a mistake in the time, I was sent the same one again this morning. It's pretty long, I won't bore you with details but...
Dear 16-year old Me,
This is 15 year and 5 month old me. How's life? How's music? How's school? Maybe if I could talk to you and ask what I should do with my life...If only this thing worked backwards. To be able to tell your younger self that things are going to be alright and there's nothing to worry about.
Reading through it, I can't fully connect with the person who poured out her heart in this message. It's almost not me. Even though I remember how I felt writing this, but having my perspectives at that point typed out... wow.

It goes on to talk about appreciating family, what happened the day before at school (I was definitely angry about something), wondering what happened with my friends leaving to go to college, college, and a list of current interests. I almost fell out of my chair when I read this.
But who knows. You might be a completely different person by then. Actually I doubt it. You're only 16. And I'm not gonna let you be reckless.
I laughed and then I felt a pang of guilt, wondering if the old me would disapprove of the person I am today. Put us in a room, I wonder if we would be friends...

Obviously, I've changed a lot. I'm smarter, more reckless, terrible at keeping up with grades and have a much better appreciation and perspective of life.
ok, im not gonna give you any cliche "seize the day crap"
I wish you a good life
but do stay focused.

PEACE
-chan

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